I don't think I have ever had unrealistic expectations.But yes I suppose each dreamer and fool would say the same thing
On very rare occasions have I let myself go. I did so in front of people who I thought could take me.
I think I've come to the conclusion that I must be a rather difficult person. More messed up than I would like to have been. My problems may not be the worst of the lot..no I'm not claiming that at all.
I think only I can really live with myself. Theres just no logic otherwise. Some people I've lost..I've lost in spite of loving them completely. Theres gotta be an explanation or may be there is none.
This post is not for pity. So don't offer any. This is perhaps a post of acceptance that the kid inside me needed to accept, the same kid who sat on a particular Saturday, content with an ice cream cone on a warm summer day hoping that if he looked outside the window with enough intensity that he would eventually make it snow. Life is just not what I thought it would be all those years ago...But I guess like everyone else I'm looking for strength every day to accept life for whatever it is and whatever it will be. One day at a time and then of course there is always hope.
I guess simply put
It never did snow, but I learn't to enjoy the ice-cream.
