A nation waits

30/9/10

A verdict that has been coming for 60 years. It is expected any moment now.

Today is judgment day. Two sections of the society warred over a location they claimed belonged to their 'god'.

A lot of blood spill later and a lot of disharmony that rocked the biggest democracy in the world.

Our secular country was brought to a standstill. Today yet again we all await a verdict with bated breath.

Its not just the judgment of the long impending case by the High Court.

But More so about the decision of the people.

The decision of the people to keep the peace.

Peace is a responsibility. Peace is necessary. Peace is the call of the hour.

Today we will find out just how 'great' our nation is.

Today we have the chance to move away from the 3rd world tag.

Today we get to show our progress and growth.

Today we get to show our unity and strength.

Today we get to show our solidarity and secularism.

Today can be a fantastic day. Its our choice.

Hope my country chooses well.

I opened a door, a little madness came out.

I never let myself go completely

Always guarded. A lot of people would agree.

I recently wrote about the walls people put up

I have always been a private person. I've never let anyone know the really important things.

I am happier that way. When I was a lil kid I had my toys. My companions who knew me well.

Then there were my dogs. They knew me better.

I never warmed upto people much. I can sure as hell talk to them.

I can befriend them. I just don't like them. So I never let them in.

They don't even know it.

Theres so much more to me I've come to realize. Things I had forgotten

This year has been all about accidental soul searching and systematic filtering.

I have learnt harsh lessons and gained immense perspective.

I recently discovered that I have become fond of kids.

I used to get irritated with them before, but strangely I've become fond of them.

I listen to my current favorite track at least once a day

I play background music in my head when I see a dramatic situation unfolding in front of me.

I have no idea what I'm going to write about before I start any post.

I hope to someday build a hospital for animals who are horribly neglected in our country.

I am my worst critic

I love montage reels

My day dreams are ridiculous but cannot compare to my actual dreams

I could eat Pizza at any time of the day.

The above information is of no consequence to u.

But this is the information I felt like sharing today. Just because.

I like to open the door a little ...on some days.

After all everyone is allowed a little madness and a lil confession.

Until next time.

Walls

Thud!

How often have you been slammed into a brick wall that doesn't waver or give an inch.

I've locked horns with one before and lost. Badly. Bruised et all.

Then I found a door...not to get through that wall to the other side mind you.

But to get out of that place. To run on an open field.

Then I saw it. A beautiful field of flowers.

I ran towards it, just as I promised I would.

And Thud!

A wall again.

It seems every time I let go off myself..I find a brick , unforgivable wall waiting for me

I am a prisoner .

I might never cross over.

But I am tired of banging against these walls. Tired.

I will build my own now and be a miserable king.

Sail

I am viciously heading toward a feeling of not belonging

With no sense of identity at present, I feel like a branded outcast on all counts.

If you could feature me on the front page of a magazine, I would be the guy a lotta ppl knew or got along with once upon a time.

Today I am a mystery even to myself. I hardly know myself anymore.

My brain feverishly attempts to work against my heart.

I hope the brain wins this fight. My hearts done me no good so far.

I am prepared to be alone. But i don't know what I will do once I get there.

Loneliness is a leech thats been sucking on my blood for sometime.

Holding me hostage. Put out a ransom. But no one wants to buy my freedom.

And as I struggle with knots and my wrists bare the effective friction marks of tight rope

I settle down, at least in my mind to recollect all the wonderful times and am grateful.

So far its been colorful and unpredictable.

I am perhaps stronger after multiple blows and am adept to face the world.

I am drawn unto the black hole of Karma as it swindles and twirls around in an ocean...

that is both endless and without horizon.

Some days I settle quite well into everyday life...

On other days I wish to just borrow a boat, raise a flag

and set sail.

Perhaps someday I will have a destination to get to.

Until then I will watch the water, show me my reflection as it lies still to project my image without ripple.

For a girl

The stars on this day will align perfectly

As will the moon...

And as the moonlight falls upon you which is our night sky's natural spotlight...

Your aura will spread right through ...

And this night will endure your grandeur

as best as it can.

Happy b'day Miss G. 17/09/10.

Faceless

She crept upon me silently

As I stood by the moonlight at my bedroom window.

Her physical presence lacking, but I felt her breath on my shoulder

'Do you crave the moon'? she asked

'Just her light', I said

'But you have that', she said

'You already have that and you enjoy it'

'Exactly' I said. 'Exactly'

And what off me? she asked...

If you take all the light...do I get darkness?..she asked with a smile

No... of course not...for you I promise the Sun.

She turned around and walked away...couldn't feel her breath anymore

Funny thing...with her, she took mine as well...

And as I stood in the light..breathless

My mind wandered....as did my heart.

My heart the traveler

My mind the vagabond

My night the journey

My moment fleeting

My fate, faceless

Ever forming. Ever being.

God is an Alien- a theory and a reply

To- http://blackabsinthe.blogspot.com/2010/09/i-wish-for-peace-to-families-who-hurt.html

Everyone probably questions. We should all ask questions. But I suppose all of this just comes down to choice.

Truth is more perception than fact I think. At least for a lot of people.

When there are no facts that can accurately explain a phenomenon such as 'How it all began' thats when theory happens. We are comfortable having answers and when we don't get them we bring in theory. Theory opens door to perception and choices. You can either choose to believe something or completely disregard it or simply remain oblivious or apathetic. So whether God exists or not is a relative thing..because if he does then none of us can prove it and if he doesn't then none of us can prove it. At least so far. So what do we do? We are out of our comfort zone...Not having answers is uncomfortable to us because we consider ourselves the dominant more evolved species at least in this galaxy. Theists strongly believe in him and attribute all the good in their lives as a blessing and the bad as his way to teach us or lessons. Atheists are considered more rational and science loving. They like to be assertive and like to take responsibility and credit when something good happens and when something bad happens they like to say 'HA and you say God exists', Bullshit theres so much crap in the world how can he exist.

Greek mythology shows Gods to have very human like qualities. They are flawed like us and not perfect and complete. Ever think that may be God does exist and may be he's just flawed? He's complete right? So may be he's both good and evil packed into one and over the last few decades may be the evil in him has been predominant. Its just a theory.

I like to keep an open mind and refuse to label myself as a theist or atheist. I believe one day we might just find out and in the end just like at the end of the movie Men in Black...our world , our universe is just a marble in a sack of marbles held by an alien. Like aliens there is a lot of debate over the subject's existence....He's as elusive as the lil green men, But perhaps according to theory his anal probing is probably a lot more painful..

May be God's an alien. A real powerful alien who gets his ya ya's from tossing his lil sack of marbles around.

May be not.