Screwed

When the realization of the intensity of a nasty and uncomfortable predicament looms over your head like a misguided , unworthy halo on its way to a hearing where a jury made of green Jello that shakes and wriggles similar to the feeling you feel in the pit of your stomach when something extraordinary has entered your life and yet however you are denied to claim it or keep it, at least temporarily and you see it being pawned to unworthy buyers who realize they don't deserve it and in a flash it is up for grabs almost within your confounded reach and thats when you realize for all your stupid yoga...u still can't stretch far enough to reach it...and as you try and ignore the involuntary squirming and shaking of your skin...your outstretched hand feels like a wretched traitor to empty promises that you could never have kept anyway and its when all this bullshit somehow makes sense to you that you realize...within the limits of your own eccentricities that you are screwed.

Damn it.

Im so screwed.

Fuck.