Adamantium

Very recently I lost someone irreplaceable. My Gran. The most charming , kind and graceful woman i knew. A very modern and wise woman. A dear Friend and confidant. I'm still recovering. This post however isn't about her sudden exit from my life, because now I have decided to celebrate her life. She would have wanted me to.

I have gained a lot of things I craved. I have lost sight of a few things. I have been empowered by a few experiences, I have been weakened by some. But one thing that remains is my will and power to overcome. I feel as humans we have different capacities for different situations. I am stubborn and foolish enough to believe that I will never give up. If something comes and beats me senseless, I will heal.

There are days when I miss the innocence I used to have. But on most days I am comfortable with the new.  I can let go of hate and love more easily now. Its not resignation, Its power. To be truly happy they say one must be happy with oneself. I for one am a work in progress, but I know I'm hiking toward the right direction. So that thought makes me happy, I am confident in my abilities , I am aware of my strength. It isn't arrogance, It's just called being aware. I have been getting to know myself better.

I like what I have found. I like what I have assumed about myself. I like that I know my shortcomings. Solutions are always around. Just have to find it. You can try to punch me out
Try to knock me down.

I will always heal.

I miss you amma. I love you. You will be a part of me always. I hope you are watching over me.
Now I know , I have someone to pray to for sure. Rest In Peace.

I won't let you down.

I will always heal.